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My Love Confession

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It’s been an exhausting few weeks with a new promotion at work, but I have managed to keep up with marathon training pretty consistently. Yeah, I did cut back some of my mileage and decided to increase on my own accord, rather than follow Runner’s World Smart Coach. It had me running an 8 mile long run, to a 16 the next week, 18, then 20, and back down to 8, then repeat. For me, that was not working, after a terrible attempt to run 18, only making it 15, barely. It was time to focus on how I was feeling and how far I could go that week. My farthest run thus far has been 16 miles, and I’ll eventually hit a 20 mile training run really close to race time, so no decent taper here. But while focusing on how I feel and how far I can push, I’ve really learned a lot about myself. I really am stronger than I give myself credit for, and I can feel how much stronger I’ve become. I’ve always hated hills, but I can run up and down all of them around my neighborhood without feeling like the hills kicked my ass. Instead, I showed them what booty shorted lover who’s boss. I get up early on Sunday mornings to beat the wretched heat to get in my long runs. Which also means I don’t go out on Saturday, and sacrifice a lot of sleep. I also run after work, either at the gym or outside. And if I had it my way, I’d run all night. It’s cooler, my joints aren’t sore, I’ve fueled properly throughout the day and stayed hydrated. If there weren’t so many crazies in this world, I’d run all night rather than sleep. Then I’d be that crazy person running all night. Whatevs, it’s peaceful.

This time around while training for my marathon, even though I feel like I hit a slight wall halfway through 16 weeks of training, I’ve really grown to love running. My first marathon training had me training for survival to even make it 26.2 miles. But now 10 miles seems like the ideal distance to run just because. It’s long enough to feel like I put forth effort without making me tired or sore later. I’m hoping this new wave I’m running on stays with me long after my marathon is over. And I can’t use the “it’s too cold to run outside” excuse, I do have a gym membership with plenty of treadmills. And I did do a long run this past Sunday since I decided to sleep in. I thought about skipping it all together, but I knew I’d regret it later. So off to the gym for 14 miles. The gym I go to has an indoor track but the constant running in circles puts too much pressure on my inner calf, so I was stuck on the treadmill. I thought about splitting up the miles between Sunday and Monday, but again, I knew I’d regret it if I passed on running on Monday. So for 14 miles I sweat it out on the treadmill. I lost my shirt around mile 4, it was starting to feel like a sauna and couldn’t dry fast enough.

Another realization came to me. A while back I had a bad training run on the treadmill which left me crying to Trainer B and thinking I wasn’t a treadmill runner anymore or at least cut out to run on the treadmill. So I stuck with the track until my calf didn’t like it anymore. This 14 mile run on the treadmill wasn’t easy, it was slightly boring, and I proved to myself how tough I was to stick it out, even though I tried talking myself out of it the whole way. Then before I knew it, I was done.

I really do enjoy running. I enjoy pushing myself a little harder and a little further. I love showing Trainer Bobby his workouts are a little too easy. Well not really, but I try. I think he enjoys controlling the speed on the treadmill. Speed workouts do hurt with him. I love seeing how much faster I can push up the Himalayan mountain. There is a street called Himalaya I run, and it is a killer hill. I think the other side is worse. I love seeing the muscles in my legs become more defined, so my booty shorts look even better! But what I love most, I’ve come into my own as a runner. I quit comparing myself to others, I listen to what’s right for me and my body to stay injury free, and I run because I want to, instead of what some training program tells me to do. I’m not good at following rules anyway.

I Guess I’m New School

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I haven’t posted in awhile, only because I really had nothing to talk about and probably will hold true throughout the rest of this post.  My apologies.

I’m about 7 weeks out from running my 2nd marathon and after 9 weeks of training this summer, I’m feeling the burnout. I just want to get this race over with so I can go back to sleeping on the weekends, drinking carbs rather than always eating them, and running 10 miles for fun, not because I have to. Lately I’ve been cutting back on mileage because of this burnt out feeling but because I’m a little scared. My training plan had me slowly building mileage each week, and it finally came time to run more than 12 miles. I ran 16 miles, and I didn’t hate the world for the torture I put myself through, actually, it wasn’t torture at all. It wasn’t easy, but it wasn’t as hard as I would have thought. The following week my long run18 miles. However, I only made it 15. I did everything I did the week before, but it wasn’t the same and before I knew it was 5 miles from my house, low on water, and on the verge of tears to call it quits. I literally dragged my ass the 5 miles home, defeated and knew this couldn’t happen again. I know not all runs will be perfect, but I didn’t think it would make me hate this whole running thing.

From there I cut back my mileage and learned to enjoy running again. I’m not sure if it was noticed around here, but I also didn’t train with Trainer Bobby for about 4 or 5 weeks. It was my decision to take a break and focus on my running, but now I’m back to sweating it out at the gym while staring into his dreamy blue eyes. Well, when the sweat isn’t burning my eyeballs.

The break I’m giving myself is much needed to work my mileage back up. I’ve been so busy these past 2 weeks, I got a promotion at work and have a million more things to do, school sucks and I’m ready for it to be over, and I’m running on less sleep. I go to bed at 11:30pm every night. I really wish it were possible to go to bed sooner. Add all that to being Lilly’s mom and I’m spent. By the time I figure out how to balance everything better, school will be over, Lilly won’t need me all the time and I’ll start going to bed at 8:30pm since I’ll be reaching that “old” age of 30 at the end of this year.

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Moving on from my whine-fest…

This past week I was craving a cupcake. Nothing else would suffice, I needed cupcake, and finally someone out there listened. At work, bring food in for the team isn’t anything unusual, and when cake is involved, I’m never disappointed. This past week we celebrated August birthdays with Gigi’s Cupcakes. Soon I was introduced to this little fella: Midnight Magic “Devil’s food cake with dark chocolate chips topped with a white cream cheese or a chocolate buttercream frosting and chocolate chips”

This is also close to the actual size. I think it might be a little bigger, I had to carry this with two hands. And me being the champ or gluttonous animal I am, I was the only one to finish mine. Which if I had my way, followed by a nap under my desk.

While we were eating, we started talking about running. A guy I work with in his 50s runs a lot. Ran Boston a few hundred times, fast as hell, and makes me feel lazy and bad when I decide to skip a run. At least he’s funny so then, I don’t feel so bad.

The topic was he runs with a purpose. Like he’s being chased, all the time. He runs in the middle of the day, busts out 8 miles, and calls it good. I asked him what he fuels with, does he carry water, and any other annoying question I can  think up. The truth: he doesn’t run with anything. He doesn’t drink any water during, he never sweats, and doesn’t wear a watch. I guess if you can run a marathon in under 3 hours, you create enough wind to stay dry. Yeah, I don’t know what that’s like, my sweat soaked Nike Dri-Fit can vouch for that.

As for me, I’m all about the gear. I run with my Camelbak or Nathan Hydration belt, my Garmin GPS watch, iPod, RoadID, and anything else to survive 6 or more miles. This whole discussion turned intoThe Old School Runner Vs. The New School Runner. I was told if I left some of that stuff behind, I’d run faster. But if I was stranded somewhere, I’d be prepared, with maybe a pop-up tent in tow.

Maybe I’ll try to leave one thing at home depending on when, where, and how far I’m going. But I’m not too sure this New School Runner can completely go Old School.

Until next time friends, I’ll try not to be so boring next time. Now I’m off to gather my gadgets to run with tomorrow…

Dance Parents

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Are so damn annoying. I know I have my stage mom moments but I know when to back off. Ever since Lilly started taking dance classes last year I’ve learned what not to do.

Every week the parents like to crowd around all the windows and stare at their kids like zoo animals. What makes it worse is when they do it every week. Nothing has changed since last week. Even though the windows are tinted the kids can still see them and it causes a distraction to not only their kid but my own. Not cool. If your kid cannot handle class without seeing your stupid face in the window, maybe they’re not ready. Try again next year. Lilly does not do well with crying kids. I think they make her nervous.

I’ve learned Lilly does better when I sit back and chill. So I catch up on facebook stalking, twitter, write new blog posts, add my headphones and I’m golden. Occasionally I’ll sneak a peek in the window if the hoards of parents aren’t hogging it.

Another thing, the dance school has limited seating in a small space. I don’t think it’s really necessary to bring along grandma, grandpa, aunts, uncles, 10 siblings, and a friend. Again, they all gather around the window, creating a distraction and not watching their other kids they brought along running around. They have family day and plus a recital. If family can’t make it, record it.

Here’s a prime example.

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Nutcracker auditions, and these moms are looking through a covered window. It’s covered for a reason, so your kids don’t have to see your stupid face staring at them. Back off and let them dance. I promise they’ll be less nervous if you leave and go read a book.

Here’s to another year of dance classes. I hope I survive!!!

From a Toddler to a Big Girl

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This past year has been a whirl wind of a new job, running my first marathon, and surviving grad school. But one thing that hasn’t slipped my mind is seeing how grown up my Lilly has become this past year. Today my mini me is turning 4 and it’s crazy how much she has really grown this year.

August 2010, First day of daycare

September 2010, I suck, I thought my child was a sealion this month.

Last year she started daycare after I got a new job and could no longer stay home with her. When the day came to drop her off there were more tears coming from me rather than her. She was a little scared but I think she was also very curious of the other kids to worry about me. I called later that day to check on her, and surprisingly she was doing really well. I guess no more calls from me.

October 2010, She discovered how fun fall leaves are.

November 2010, She agreed to sleep in her own bed for a little bit.

As much as I bitched and complained about how much daycare costs, it was worth it. Shes very outgoing and not so shy, smart, loves reading books even more, and hates if I pick her up early. I guess staying home with me isn’t as much fun as it used to be. I need to stop thinking I’m so cool now.

December 2010, One lucky lady to have the pleasure to watch me run RnR Las Vegas

January 2011, Already practicing wearing heels.

This year she has become very opinionated, stubborn, went from being a shy toddler to a very outspoken big girl. This was a year where she wanted to do a lot of things herself like brushing her teeth, using the big potty, picking out her clothes, etc. The list goes on and on, some things I gave into and others, I took some control over. Cowboy boots cannot be worn with everything.

February 2011, My stage mom prop in the making.

March 2011, Riding without me holding her like a seatbelt.

But the moment where I finally realized all this was on the last day of ballet class in June, she decided to leave me at the door, gave me a hug and kiss and walked into class by herself. No more walking her in and making sure she’s okay. But that’s the thing about her, she will let you know she’s okay and if not, you’ll definitely hear about that as well.

April 2011, Health and Fitness Day at the Children's Museum

May 2011, The first warm day of the season=pool time and a little "how to pour" modeling

Happy Birthday, Bunny!! I’m so proud of you and I’m lucky to be your mommie and have the privilege to watch you learn and grow everyday!!!

June 2011, I was in full-on stage mom mode come recital time.

July 2011, Double Slip n Slides are hard work.